Amante Perduto*

 

Melbourne. 2022.

I

O P E N E D myself

to

you.

My heart

full of pearls.

Precious,

but we all know about precious things,

everyone ends up robbing,

tainting them,

like my heart.

Broken oh,

broken so.

My words spoke the

honest truth.

You,

we,

clicked…

like two magnets.

The journey,

I grew

more

and more,

so much more,

falling

like Alice in wonderland

losing

my sense

                           of vulnerability.

I fell head first,

face planted on the ground

in love

with you…

Earthquake.

I thought only

of running.

You were leaving,

eventually.

The inevitable was going

to be in fruition,

it was going to happen,

so…

I ended it.

Picked up the phone,

rang

said goodbye

said it was the end

when really

I wanted

you

to fight for what I thought

was real;

The feelings-

transpiring.

Did you feel that

kick?

That whistle that it was

love?

I didn’t think so?

so I ran

far from you.

I miss you,

though.

Cupid you

                 fucked up.

two tangent lines

meant to meet

once,

never to cross

paths

again.

Fate

oh how I lost my

faith.

So much

in common.

My soul sang

with his presence.

we couldn’t spare

a glance

elsewhere

besides the beauty

set in front

of us.

The most beautiful thing

always inches from

my face,

lips,

arms length,

now my arms

aren’t long enough,

                                damn the distance.

A good heart

gone.

Open to another

oh dear what have I done?

I mourn.

 

Stereo Story #730

*Lost lover